Hello All!
It's really hard, rather, time-consuming to type one-handed, but that's whatcha gotta do when there's a baby asleep in the other one. Anyway, our little man is a month old today, and unfortunately, Bryan's on duty and can't be here today. But we celebrated with T.G.I. Friday's takeout last night. I wanted to go out so badly, but J.R.'s tendency to fight his sleep made that a not-so-pleasant prospect.
So here's the scoop: He's sleeping 3-4 hours at a time at night, which is nice. But after his 2am feeding, he likes to stay awake until his next feeding at four... ugh. But then he'll sleep until 7 or 8am. During the day, he eats about every two to three hours, then he'll be awake and alert for about twenty minutes. After that, he starts getting tired and will get to the point of all-out screaming. Bryan hates those times, it doesn't make sense to him why he would cry when he's tired instead of just going to sleep. I told him J.R. just can't get to sleep without help, via walking around the block or rocking. It is the worst at 5-6pm and 7-8pm. After eight, we're headed for bed. I'm averaging about six hours' sleep total, okay for now. Once in a while, I'll catch a nap in late afternoon, but not always.
So far, I'm not seeing any signs of postpartum depression, which is good, especially given JR's screaming sessions. Those can be horrendously frustrating, but I can deal with it better than Bryan right now. I know I'm not bonding with the baby like I think I should be, but my research says to give it time. It still hasn't hit me that he's mine and not going anywhere. I know it in my head, but haven't felt it in my heart, if you know what I mean.
Poor Bryan's feeling pretty overwhelmed. He had absolutely no prior experience with babies, and tries not to do too much with JR because he's afraid his inexperience will make Bryan mess up and possibly hurt JR. It really frustrated me that he didn't do much with him until I said something and Bryan told me what was going on.
I'm feeling pretty good physically, one of the reasons I wanted to go out to eat so badly. I still have some dull pain down below, and once in a while, I'll feel like my stitches are pulling, but most of the time, I feel pretty good. I've lost 23 pounds so far. I still can't fit into my "fat" pants comfortably. I'm wearing mostly maternity pants still, along with my sweats. I'm wearing bras that are 2 whole cup sizes bigger than I was before I got pregnant!!! Because of that, several of my shirts don't fit anymore, or they sit higher on my belly than I'm comfortable with. I still have a lot of extra skin and icky stretch marks I don't feel like showing off. But as long as my shirts are long enough, I'm in non-maternity shirts!!! I'm trying to avoid going out and buying any clothes just to have non-maternity ones that fit. I may have to, though, for my self-esteem. That remains to be seen. But, I was walking around the block with J.R. the other day, and some guy in a passing car called, "Hey, sexy!" Totally shot my self-esteem way up!!! And Bryan told me I should be a model, to show women that they can still look great after having a baby. That made me feel so awesome!!! So I'm feeling pretty good mentally, too. My only issue is feeling tied down by a baby that wants to be held all the time. I can't get any housework done, and it's a very rare thing when I actually want to do housework!
Anyway, here's pictures of JR and me, taken today. Isn't he just the handsomest little rake you ever did see?
1 comment:
I may be prejudice, but he has to be the most beautiful grandbaby. I haven't gotten to see him yet, but the web cam helps a lot. At least I can "see" him that way and get too watch him. My baby girl looks pretty good, too. I didn't lose weight that fast after having my first 2.
LOVE YOU,
MOM
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